When I was attuned to the second level of Reiki my Reiki Master told me that she thought that I was going to go through an extra big 21 day cleanse. As I felt that I had the stomach flu for the entire 3 weeks following my Reiki 1 attunement I was a little put off by this. I remember thinking what had I just gotten myself into? I was scared but excited at the same time and I remember repeating, “I’m going to rock this cleanse” to myself over and over.
A lot of times people share how easy it is to slowly open a chakra that has closed. There are many basic methods and all seem to be done with ease or at least offer a solution after being worked on for a few weeks. What isn’t often mentioned is that sometimes this isn’t a graceful and pain free process. Sometimes, you have so much negativity and pain that needs to be cleansed and released that a little pain may be involved.
The next day I felt so much lighter and just different. I felt beautiful when I looked in the mirror. I felt happy. I was excited to get dressed, do my hair and make myself look nice. I was going through a divorce at the time and was acting as a single mom of 2, so looking good and feeling beautiful wasn’t something that was a priority for me. I contacted my Reiki Master and explained to her what had gone on that night. She told me that it was my heart chakra opening and that I had gone through a healing crisis. I had never felt self-love before and that is why it was painful at first. I immediately felt this to be true with every ounce of my being.At the beginning of my 2nd degree cleanse I went through the normal ups and downs. Sometimes I felt light and happy and sometimes I felt that I needed to let a lot of emotions out. After the first week I started feeling some pain off and on in my heart area. I remember thinking it’s probably the cleanse. No reason to get alarmed. One night I was laying in bed when suddenly I had what can best be described as horrible indigestion. I had bad chest pain and pain in my rib cage. It was like I had trapped burps that could not get out. I tried drinking water, taking antacids, pepto bismol, ibprofin, etc. Nothing worked. I do have a lot of experience in the medical field and know the classic symptoms of a heart attack. For some reason though I was certain that this was not one and had to do with the cleanse. This went on for hours. Once it was about 2 am I started to get really scared and thought that maybe I was just being a little too spiritual and needed to go to the ER to get checked out. I was scared, crying and started praying. I decided that I was giving myself one more hour and if the pain didn’t go away I was headed to the ER. I grabbed my favorite stone that was a mix of moonstone, quartz and amethyst and sat in bed counting down the minutes until I was headed to the hospital. Slowly but surely the pain went away over the next hour and thankfully did not return.
Since that time I have welcomed love into my life and have been able to give and receive it without any problems. Although it was a scary experience for me it has really helped me better relate to what some of my clients experience and has made me a much better practitioner and teacher. If you experience a healing crisis or are unsure and feel that you need to be checked out by a doctor please do so! Trust yourself and what you feel is best for you.
Wishing you all love and light.
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